Days Off

So, today I have a day off. There was originally a forecast for a second snow storm today, so I made no plans to go out and do something so now I am at home cleaning and organizing. I am taking a short break as you can probably guess, by writing this. I am trying to update here regularly, hopefully I’ll come up with some sort of routine to post things, otherwise, you’ll only be getting book reviews haha. I feel like I have so much to say, but not enough time to write all the posts so I need to be able to make time for everything.

I have started this blog because I enjoy writing and reading and finding out about things people read, use or bake and trying new things or discovering new books, products or food so I decided to put that here on my page. My mind is just a mess of things so I need to figure out how to organize what I want to write about and how to say it. It’s definitely a learning process, which ANYONE can do. What I love about the pandemic is that there are a lot of people who have been doing creative things, whether it’s work related or just for fun. Obviously this is not for my work, but I love writing. I always have and have always kept journals or diaries throughout my life. I find they help the most when I am having a hard time, but I am trying to write during all times of life now because my last blog, while being a release of a lot of negative experiences and energies I had during 2016-2017, was really depressing. Someone, who shall remain nameless, kicked me down when I was already at my lowest point, when she should have known better. I usually forgive most people, I don’t normally hold a grudge, but you bet your ass I will never forget how people have made me feel. Not sure if this is stupid or not, but some people will always be in your life, whether they are good for you or not, you just have to put up limitations. I for one don’t really care if you don’t like me or not. I have spent most of my life catering to other people to make them happy before myself, and who was there for me when I needed them the most? Not a lot of those people. Am I upset about this ? Not really, being a nice person all the time gets people walking all over you, now I put my foot down and I am MUCH HAPPIER. I don’t do anything I don’t want to do and I am almost always happy. I do suffer from anxiety and a little depression here and there, you just need to focus on yourself, which took me a long time but I have come a long way. I tell people what I need from them and if they are not able to do those things with or for me, then I don’t need them. If you’re not a positive person or a positive addition to my life then I will not surround myself with you plain and simple. Does that make me sad? A little, but why should I waste my time with someone who doesn’t consider me or my feelings or make me a priority? If you keep someone in your life that anchors you down and makes you unhappy, why surround yourself with that person? You’re just setting yourself up for disaster. That being said, I am in a much better place mentally now than I have been probably in my entire life. Can you say the same about yourself? No? Then work on yourself and learn to love yourself and I promise you won’t be disappointed. It took me a long time, but I finally know who I am.

Don’t give up! If there’s something you want to do, do it! Who cares what other people think, do it for yourself. You’re the only person that matters in the end. Whether you’re in a couple or you have a family, you’re still your own person. Ask yourself who you are and what defines you. When you look inside you’ll find great things! That’s why I’m here on this blog, because I love to write and explore new things and share new things. Maybe you’ll like it and maybe you wont, but this page is here to stay, full of different moods and experiences! I’m glad to have you along for the ride!

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